The people you trust?!?!

Friends, yes I know what an overused topic. Many people write about it, but this is about friends in general. This blog is not about MY friends or anyone else it is just how I generally feel about them. Friends there super great, but they can be super bad. In the dictionary the definition of friends is "A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts." This is true if this person is really your friend. Although a friend means someone that you can trust, people can misuse the word. They can say they are your friend but they really are not. They could be using you to get up in life, to get something or someone, to make someone mad, or to hurt you. They could be hanging out with you as a joke or to see what you are talking about. Some people will be your "friend" for a while because they are having a fight with their real friend. Sometimes we are blind to these things because we trust them with all our heart or think they are always there for us. You might see them hurting you but you like them so much that you over look it. The definition says that you know the person. It may be speaking of just knowing who they are, their name. If I were to write the dictionary my definition is to really know them. The things about them that make them special. Their feelings about the world, their morals, what they believe in, and what will upset them. If you don't know about someones morals then the way you have been raised and the way they have will clash. I am not saying that one way is wrong and one is right or you can't be friends with someone that does this or that. I am saying that if they will clash and fight about their differences all the time. For some they can work it out, but for me I can't because I believe in things and it is hard for me to change. I personally don't want to change my beliefs and I wont. If their are only a few things then it will work out fine. Everyone needs at least one best friend. That is really all you if it is really a real friend. A friend doesn't have to be your age or sex. A friend can be someone your related to or not related to. As my part in the play at school says, a friend can be anything you like as long you like them. A good friend is always their for you, they will stand for you, you can trust them with the world, and you can look at them and tell what they are thinking. Friends are a place to fall if you need to sometimes. You cant take things all the time sometimes you just need to be upset. Most friendships end usually for stupid reasons that don't really matter. Sometimes people get tired of each other things happen and you cant make them be your friend. Friends can hurt you as much as they help you. They might tell something that only they know about you. They could make up lies about you. It doesn't matter what it is it still hurts. It hurts if someone you have trusted in all this time just does things to you. It seems like all that time you spent with them goes up in smoke. I know these things from experience and from observing. Friends is a big IF.

Surprised

Since it is just the second full week of school I'll write about how it is going so far. That answer would be surprised. This year I have found myself surprised about everything. The first thing that surprised me right off was that everyone is getting along way better than I thought. To tell you the truth starting this school year I had no idea about who my friends were. The first say hour or so of school I could tell who was going to "hang out" together. I was very happy at what I saw. The one thing that stuck out was Alya, Kristin, Cameron, Riki, and I were getting along great. I had been wanting to be friends with Kristin, Ayla, and Cameron for most of last year, but they seemed very tight nit and didn't really like Riki and I sitting with them. Also, we all usually couldn't get along. This year it just all fell in place and it seems we have all been friends for years. Of course that's not all my friends Jordan, Gayla, and Lauren are great to sit with to:I was just extremely surprised about the other three. Anyway that's going great and that makes life that much easier. Another surprising thing is 8th grade, as far as classes go, is very different. I was not expecting so many changes 6th and 7th grade were so much the same I assumed 8th would be the like that. I think I was wrong. It is the same in some ways of what to expect but the work is just different. It is a lot more challenging, but I guess that is to get us ready for high school. I am glad they are doing it though because I'm use to them and if they get us ready it will be better than teachers you don't even know. I am sure when I do go to high school that it will be a lot harder than this though. Also, I'm not use to doing school work from such a long summer once I get use to it all it will probably become a routine. The new kids Heaven and Alex are also surprising in a good way. They are both really cool kids and I'm glad the came to FRA. I was kind of worried about them coming for a while but now I'm glad they came. Both of them are very nice so far which for me is surprising. I was expecting two kids that were going to make everything totally different and be very mean, but they didn't and they aren't. Neither of them seem as if they were new but as if they had been here for a while. I hope they feel the same way. AR has been surprisingly easy and fun. I think I like to read.(for now anyway) I am also surprised that I am liking cheerleading which I thought I wasn't. Sometimes I hate it because it seems pointless because everyone else thinks it is. Believe it or not it is hard work you know. If you don't believe me then try it. Sometimes I get tired of people making fun of cheerleading; that's when it all seems pointless all that work for people making fun of you. This year it seems surprisingly point full I don't know why because it is just like every year but it does. One more surprising thing is how 8th grade doesn't feel so seniority like, like people say. At least to me. I don't think the 6th graders feel as scared as I was of the 8th graders when I was is 6th grade. I think our class is losers. I'm just kidding. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing, the 6th graders not being scared. It could be good because it might make their year easier. It could be bad because then 8th grade wouldn't be different which would mean they might start being mean to us. That would be crazy. Maybe, 8th graders feel the same thing and I just don't see the seniority. Another thing I don't even know half the 6th grade. I did last year because my brother is in that class but there are so many new kid (13 I think ) that I feel overwhelmed with all the faces I don't know in the hall. With brings me to yet another surprising thing. I forgot how bad the halls were. I remembered Aug 16, I think they got worse. Sometimes I'll be standing in the hall with some 8th graders trying to go to one class and some 6th or 7th graders trying to go to another class and we will meet in the middle and no one moves because we get stuck. I think this is crazy and we will just stand there until someone realizes that someones got to move. But any way my last surprising thing is how easy it was to write this blog and how good it feels after writing it. I'm not sure if this is what I'm suppose to be doing or even if it sounds great and I really don't care. This is the first blog that I didn't have to think and think about what to write and the first one I actually felt good about after I wrote. I don't even no why. Anyway I'm surprised that I wrote a blog that I had no idea what I was writing about when I started and how long it is and how short it seemed to write it.

Life...Friends...New Kids...Skidaway...and the Pursuit of Happiness

It seems as though as soon as the year winds down everyone gets in place and used to it. It is like as soon as everyone starts to get along the year is over. Next year we will more than likely have a new person, so what I have heard. That is the only thing I hate about new people, you have to get use to them. Our class until the middle of this year had not had a new kid in while and we all knew each other very well. On the other hand, I like new people it gives you a shake up. I am glad our class is getting along so well. It makes things so much easier. Well I say we are getting along, let me rephrase that I THINK we are getting along. I have made news friends and started being more friendly to others. I have found that a lot of friends are great. You still need a couple of real close ones though. Sometimes if your around someone all the time you start to get one each others nerves. That's when a lot of friends are great. I really have no problem with anyone in my class. I consider all of them my friends. That's the way I am most of the time. I am not one of those people that a lot of things get on my nerves so I can get along with almost anyone if they are willing. If a person does get on my nerves I usually just keep my cool and don't say anything. If I do get mad I am mad. But it is hard for me to get real mad with most people. I also learned not to suddenly let out your anger in a drastic way without sleeping on it. New people probably have time getting use to our class. Sure we are nice and we get along or seem to. What is hard for a new person is to find their place in our class. Everyone can find a place in time. I want to see if the new people are good kids. Then I like them. I am always as helpful as I can be to new people but it is hard to tell them the whole class history. I wish I could but there is not enough hours in a day. But again seeing are class back to getting along is awesome. I hope it stays that way. Just in time for Skidaway which by the way I can not wait for. Hmmm..........wander wonder who I will room with. I wish Mrs. Riggins would hurry and choose groups. I personally do not care but I know some people that do.

You Know It!!!

Tomorrow is Field Day and I can not wait. It will be fun to get out of class and play around. My class has never really been the type that wins Field Day, in fact I do not think we ever have. It is okay though. I think that we have fun and that's all that matters. Some people on the other hand are VERY competitive. If they lose they get mad and I know that's no fun. It ruins it. Everyone should just make tomorrow a happy memory. No one wants to feel bad later about getting all upset because we did not win the pyramid or kickball. I think I would feel bad if I ruined Field Day by getting upset. I mean what does winning Field Day even accomplish except winning. I guess it is a good felling though. I hope that tomorrow no one get TOO competitive. It would be nice to win though. You never know this may be our year. Everyone has a equal chance. That's another thing NO ONE can predict the future. So no one knows that they are going to win because they have so and so. Even if you practice, you only do the event once so one mistake and you mess up everything. You have to have skill and luck to win. Everyone should have fun tomorrow. Good luck to you all!!!!

A Life of Tommorows

This year is almost over. I am glad. I am sure most everyone is. Today I was thinking about school almost being over and I thought about something. I am almost in the 8TH GRADE. WOW! My life goes by so fast. Even though everyone keeps wanting and wanting the year over with, it being over does not really mean anything. What IS the big deal about it being over? Yes, it does mean summer will be here. But another year will soon start. Then everyone will want that to be over with. But every year is a year gone. They never change. They will go by until I graduate, then to college, then in my career. Time never stops. Why does everyone want a day, week, month, or year over with there will just be another one. Sometimes I think that I am wasting my life. It seems like I am not making my life much of importance. When a year goes by you can never get back. One more year until High School, three until I drive, five until Graduation, the list keeps on going. But why look forward to something so much that you miss right know? Chances are if you are like that to that event when that one comes you will only look forward to the next one and not take in this one. I wonder when I am old and remembering my life what I will remember. Will I remember the 7th grade? That is what scares me am I making enough of my life. Life keeps going on until death. It seems like a lot of people fear death, many do not want to die. I mean who does. But it is funny people keep wanting time go to an event later in their life closer to their death. It is like they want to get closer to dieing. After you die some people will go to heaven. That is the best ever. But you do not go around hearing many people saying "I can not wait to die" on a regular bases like you hear "I can not wait for summer."

My Heart Goes Out!!!!

The killing at Virginia Tech was a very sad event. I use to think one person dying was not a lot. But if you think of one of your friends or family dying it is a lot. Even if you hardly knew them it is still very sad. Think about it. There were thirty people that died at Virginia Tech. It is like my class and almost all the sixth grade being killed. That is a lot of people that were effected. Their life was taken that's one. That life that could of cured cancer. That life that was going to make a difference. Also all of their friends and family were effected, that number could go on and on. Then the friends of the family and friends can be effected because their friends would be upset. You can not forget the general public that is saddened by the event. Multiply that by thirty and you get the worse school murder in U.S History. I do not know any of the people that died but it is still sad that all of those people died. It is even sadder that they were murdered by a fellow student. The saddest thing is that this is not the last tine we will hear about something like this. I wonder why people kill others. It does not help their problems it just makes matters worse. Instead of people worrying about getting killed like that. We should stop the problem where it begins. I think we should focus on helping people who have those crazy thoughts. If we make it where those people do not feel bad about coming out and telling people that they think those things, then we could solve the problem. If someone thinks that someone has those thoughts they should tell someone. I wonder if there is a number or something? If not there should be. I feel bad that people think those thoughts it must be horrible for them. I mean they think that stuff all the time. I do not think that they can enjoy life that much.We should teach people how to control their anger. Once again my heart goes out to those thirty student's loved ones.

My Top 5!!!

It is very hard to read books at my school for AR. Since I am in 7th grade I have to get thirty points. I end up reading a lot of books because of AR. My favorite is The Client. It is descriptive and has a good story. The book is very exciting. It was also very adventurous. The boy in the book has a lot of responsibility.He has experienced a lot in his life. My next favorite is The Westing Game. I love mysteries. The Westing Game was like a mystery and very confusing. There was no way to guess what was going to happen next. It had a lot of characters so you did not get bored of one. That book was awesome. My third favorite is The Island of the Blue Dolphins. It showed how to survive with out all of the high tech stuff. It is a journey and very intriguing. It seemed very real. She was very lonely though. On the other hand she could do whatever she wanted to when she wanted to. A Wrinkle in Time is my fourth favorite book. It was one of the oddest books I have ever read. Some on the subjects they talked about seemed so out there that it was interesting. It was something out of what I usually read. The fifth and last book that I will mention is The Pretty Strikes Back. I love all of the Clique books it is like a TV show. I like that book in the series the most because it has the most excitement in it. The friends are very close and would do almost anything for each other. I think that is really cool. I like these books because each one of them have to do with the other. It was also the best one because they got in a lot of trouble that they never get into. Some books are okay but others are horrible. Reading can be kind of fun if you read the right books. I do not like to read a lot though.

My English Teacher!!!

Mrs. Chapman is a very interesting person. I like that she is tough. It teaches us. It sometimes can be hard. We are suppose to do the right thing anyway. If someone did not enforce rules the world would be very wild. Mrs. Chapman does a VERY GOOD job of enforcing the rules. I also think she is fun and a little crazy. I like that. She always comes up with fun activities and things that take a boring day and give you something to look forward to. I also like that we read books in class and not a home. Since we already read AR, it is less stress. She also picks out good books. She is very good at teaching English so you can learn it even if it is hard to understand. Her test are very hard or is it English that is hard. But in the end I have never forgotten am, is, are, was, were and that's all that matters. It matters if we learn things not memorize them for a test and forget. I learn things in English. She is also funny. She has bad handwriting so it is better that she uses power points. Her teaching style of doing things over and over makes you remember it. She can get mad but is alright in the end. Mrs. Chapman is one of my favorite teacher. She is very fun to be around. Also to be tough she has a very carefree like spirit. I can not explain everything about her. I am not good at explaining people. If I could change something it about Mrs. Chapman and her teaching styles, it would be to explain our projects better and maybe her handwriting. But I am one to talk my handwriting is chicken scratch. Mrs. Chapman has something about her that is totally different and I love it. The way she teaches and handles things is awesome.

Keep Your Head High There are People Who Would Kill to See You Fall

Sometimes when people say things to you that are mean or say things behind your back they just want you to mess up. People want you to start believing it. They are usually jealous for some reason or another and they don't want you to do better than them. If you let them get to you then you are just doing what they want you to do. Instead you should not fall in their trap. If they are trying to be mean resist it and make them the one that suffers. Do not let someone take what you have worked for, make them work just as hard to get it. If you let them get the easy way out then they will do it again and hurt someone else. Then there will be another person who suffered and the bad guy wins.If you believe them then you are not confident in yourself. If someone talks about you about things that are not true then they are wanting you to give in and let them win. When they say thing about you that are not true then they are just not sure of them self so they make everyone look bad to make them look better. They do not think that their real self is good enough. There is something that is worrying them about themselves. Do not let people ruin your life that are spending their life trying to make yours horrible. I think that if people would focus on their life then their life would be great. Then they will not have to ruin other peoples life. The bad guys should always finish last until they turn into the good guy.

Rock or Feather

After the ITBS test my class played a game called rock or feather. In the game there would be two choices like a rock or a feather. Then you had to choose which one described you the most. There was one side of the room for one choice and another side for the other. I personally liked the game. It was interesting to hear about what people thought about why the object was like them. It really got me thinking about the way I was. I think it made me stop and think, okay what in that object is like me. I had to think of all my traits and I discovered more than I usually think about. Also, I had to make a choice on which one. I could not just choose both. I had to think about ME. Sometimes it was weird to be on a side with four people and the rest of the class on the other. It also let me see other peoples traits that I have not noticed. Sometimes one side would say stuff and it sounded really good for them but made the other side sound like horrible people. But I also saw you did not necessarily have to like the object better than the other to choose it. It was describing YOU. For example, one was mansion or small country house. Most people choose small country house and talked about a family getting along better, they did not want to live in a big showy house, or people who live in mansions are snobby. I guess in one way it described them. I with a couple of other people choose a mansion and people just assumed it was because we like to spend money. I did not choose it because I personally liked mansion better. I choose it because it had plenty of room to let people in and that was like the way I do not only have certain friends I like to have them all over the place. Another interesting factor is that different people would all have different answers for the same thing. It shows that we had to be creative to come up with a reason on why we picked it. I think that game was a great game and I forgot all about the time while playing it. It was something I liked to play and I think other people could say the same thing.

Pretty is as Pretty Does!!!

How do I look? I have heard and asked that question many times. I am sure we all have. I think it is okay to care about your appearance. But why are we so obsessed about looking perfectly beautiful. I think it has to do with society. Someone had to start the whole you have to look perfect to be accepted thing. It effects all of us in many ways. Boys in my class likes girls only if they are "hot". They do not care about personality. Girls are always worried about people thinking she is ugly. I personally think it is stupid. Anyways who is to say what beauty is. Everyone is different so you can not just choose one girl and say she is beauty. God made us all looking different. What is the definition of beauty? Everyone is different there no way to know what it is. I saw this video one time it took an average girl it was sped up but it took them 51/2 to make her "beautiful" for a magazine. That was with professional people doing it. Come on those magazines are very deceiving, no one can do that everyday. Another thing I see like 5k girls worrying about being pretty and thin. They say they are going on diets. That is absurd!!! I have saw them saying one girl is prettier than the other and making fun of the "ugly" girl. They are so young. Even this 2 year old I babysit will says that my shoes are cute or point to my hair and say pretty. Then she will ask if hers are cute and pretty. What most people do not think about are people with life threatening diseases and disabilities. I am sure they are not worried about beauty they just want to be normal. If everyone would stop worrying about "prettiness" the world would be a better place. People should look at the inside, your personality. After all pretty is as pretty does.

Is There a Time Machine?

Have you ever wish there was such a thing as a time machine? One that can take you back and you would not make some crazy mistake. Have you ever made a decision on the first emotion you feel when something is happening all to fast? Well I have a lot of times. But one sticks out like a sore thumb to me because it was so resonant. It was one that made my life very different but it will probably not effect me in 10 years but right NOW it does. It has to do with school and friends but I will not point out the exact thing. Although a lot of my friends will figure it out when they read this. It effected most of you too. I wish I could have taken it back. I really do not like change. My decision did not exactly make my life worse it actually made it better. The thing is that everyday is totally new yesterday is like it never happened so you can never rely on that. My routine that I had gotten used to was totally interrupted. I think in the long run I made a good decision but I wish I would have did it a little different. I think my life will turn into a routine all will be forgotten until the next explosion. I guess change is good though it keeps life interesting, but sometimes it happens too fast. Maybe, it is just how I notice it when it is finally over. But one thing is for sure right now tomorrow looks a little cloudy.I really should not fret over these things. My life could be so much worse. I feel bad when I am so selfish. I try not to be, but everyone is every once in a while. Here lately I have been. Think about it there are so many other people who would love to have my life. I worry to much. I will stop now and save it for another blog.

The lady

I think it is a good thing that the lady in the movie we watched had friends. It still was not a good experience but it made it easier. She had someone to live for and to talk to. She had people to share what she was going through. Also, she did not feel so alone. Losing her family had to be hard and she would have someone that she would know would be with her through this hard experience. I know that losing her friend in front of her had to be hard because they became almost family. The other friend losing her after it was all over must have felt like a waste because she tried hard and survived though the ruff times. But when it was time to rejoice it was the end of her life. I guess God planned it that way but both had suffered so much before they died. They learned thing and fulfilled what they were suppose to do in their life. I wonder if God planned the Holocaust, that is what I do not understand. Why does God let horrible stuff happen? The lady in the movie had God with her, everyone did. But the lady in the movie was very lucky. She did not kill herself because she felt her father on her neck like when she made had promise not to do it. I guess that is more a good thing it happened at that time. When she saw the people get killed for running away and she did not do it it was luck and timing. I think all luck is God though.

So SAD!!!

The movie we are watching is so sad. They do not know that is the last time to see most of their family, but it is. Just think out there all alone. The beds were very close. The methods to kill them are so cruel. I do not think I could not take that emotion. All of the dead bodies, with no clothes on. They were so skinny. To think so people think it never happened. All the suffering some the survivor went though, all of their heart ache be something that never happened. If I lived through it I had the mental trauma to live with and that is not the reason you are like that because it never happened. I would not be able to handle it . How could someone not believe something with so much evidence. The explanation is that they died from causes related to a war. That is just so outrageous, that someone could deny something so horrible that someone went though. I think people do not want to face the facts. It goes on all the time. People making fun of someone or talk about someone for the way they are different. I mean everyone has done it at sometime. I have seen it in everyone in my class a lot of the time. Some people are scared it will happen to them or they do not want to admit that they do it. Jesus is the only one that has ever been perfect. How can someone make fun of someone that is how God made them, so you are making fun of God. I am not saying I have not done it because I have. But a lot of people including me need to remember that God made people the way they are.

Never Seen

If I had to stay in hiding, I would not like it. I agree with Margot when she said that she was ready for it to be over. I do not think it was right for Mrs. Frank to say she should be ashamed. Mrs. Frank has already had her fun of childhood. Anne, Margot, and Peter will never get these years back and "in my opinion" I think those are the best years. There is not as much to worry about. I feel bad for all of them to have to stay in hiding. I feel the worse for the the younger ones because I am younger. I think that they are not even getting a chance to see what they want from the world. The adults know what they want. The kids have not had enough experience to know. Eventually if they do get out, where will they start to rebuild their life? I think they are lucky to be alive. Also, I think whatever is coming their way they should get it over with. They can not stay in hiding forever. Maybe the war will be over soon. The kids are not getting to be social and are very isolated from the world. I do not know much about this, but I do not think that it is good for them. They are also not getting the lessons of life they need. The parents lived before this has happened and does not need to dream about it. It's kind of like them taking the test before studying . The kids will have to start late in the game and experience the things after the fact that most people do.

Getting caught

The "family" thought they were caught. It was only a robber. I liked that they were not worried about the money. In most stories I think they would have freaked when the money was taken. Peter, is always getting blamed for everything. I think his father is not happy with him. His father is always getting mad at him for everything. Today when we read the a man that Mr. Frank knows told Mr. Kraler he remembers a door where that bookcase was. He also is demanding his pay increased. The "family" is hiding behind the bookcase. I think he is the robber that came. I do not think he will tell the green police though. He will demand money because he knows he can get it. After all he was Mr. Franks friend. I also can not believe that Mr. Frank would sell something so dear to Mrs. Frank to get something like cigarettes that are bad for you. Maybe if it was for something more important I would think differently. Also today in the story Meip brought them a cake. Something that stuck out to me was that it took weeks of sugar rations to make it. That means they do not get much sugar. No wonder they are so skinny they never eat cake or any other sweets.

Mornings and I.O.Us

I like to learn about things that happened in history, like the Holocaust. We are learning about it in English. We are reading Anne Frank. She had to go into hiding. I feel bad that Anne and the "family" can not lurk about in the morning. I would not like that too much, because I am always busy.
At Hanukkah Anne MADE her gifts for everyone. She made her mother an I.O.U. Today we had to get ten hours of whatever my parents say, as an I.O.U. It will not be to hard to get the ten hours. I am always doing chores in the house, it is just my routine. It was very smart of her to make homemade presents. Anne is my favorite character so far.

Skiing

I am going skiing this Friday with my church!!! I am coming back Monday night. We are going to West Virginia.
The trip is going to take about 10 hours. Ashley is a girl that goes to my church. She and I both have brown hair and kind of dark skin. We both ended up with the same jacket and pants. I can not believe it. It is going to be funny if someone gets us mixed up. At church they already do they really will now.